Today I “graduate” from Level 1. I feel pretty accomplished- it took way longer than a month, and I’m only seeing a sliver of progress on my goals, but I know that things are working for me and I can’t wait to see what Level 2 holds.
I spent my final reflection day to just read every blog post I’ve written during Level 1. I know I didn’t write a post every day, but I want to get better with maintaining this blog during Level 2 and also make some improvements to the design/layout/etc.
I also revisited my listing of goals, and based on some of my other practices/readings right now, as well as my life circumstances (I’ve been struggling with anxiety at my sales job), I’ve made a few changes. I deleted the goal to improve cognitive functioning (just not as important right now), added a new one about unlocking new dimensions of awareness, and otherwise tweaked/reworked the existing ones.
So now, my (semi-prioritized) list of goals is as follows:
I have to say, I’m actually kind of surprised that I made it this far. When I started using BrainEv, I almost persuaded myself AGAINST making this blog, thinking to myself “Ugh, I never finish these things- I’ll just give up after a week or two.” So I’m feeling pretty accomplished right now.
I’ll use my time tomorrow for the final Level I reflection (and then I’m on to Level II holy crap!), so in this post I’m just going to talk about how my final practice went.
I did a late afternoon practice as I usually do (when I’m not doing pre-sleep practice), and it went very well. I went into it feeling a little bit of dread and anxiety about my work life (things are kind of tough right now, but it makes using BrainEv all the more worthwhile), and doing the practice definitely helped erase/alleviate those feelings. Within 5 minutes I was fully relaxed and in a deep state of meditation.
I stayed consistently down, except for a brief moment of consciousness maybe 15-20 minutes in where I just felt gratitude and said “wow, this feels great” and continued along. It took me a few extra minutes to fully “wake up” after the audio ended, maybe 2-3 minutes, but I know I didn’t fall asleep and I woke up feeling nice and refreshed.
For the first time ever, I couldn’t finish a practice session. I tried to do sleep training, but ended up laying in bed wide awake with my mind thinking a lot for about 16-20 minutes before I gave up and just ended my session early. It was rough, but at that point I wanted to just actually go to sleep.
NOT an encouraging practice session, so I hope that tomorrow will be better, seeing as it’s my last day of Level I!
After a really rough and depressing day at work, I spent my evening relaxing until about 9:30 when I went ahead and did my BrainEv practice.
At first, I had a lot of thoughts rushing around my mind- no surprise, especially given how my day went. As I started to gain control of my mind and slow down, I actually opened my eyes and checked how far into the practice I was- almost 5 minutes, meaning my “5 minutes to go ‘down'” theory is spot on. I began relaxing quickly after that.
I actually ended up falling asleep in the middle of the practice, which is something I haven’t done in a while, but I guess it’s exactly what my body/mind needed. I only slept for about 2 minutes after the audio ended, so I’m sure that the brainwaves coming back up to an alert state did indeed help draw me out of sleep.
An okay practice, but exactly what I needed after a sucky day. Looking forward to my last two days of Level 1 actual practice!
Don’t have much to say about last night’s practice- went the same as usual for sleep practice. I had to use my big headphones for the night (my Sennheiser HD-205s), so that was less comfortable than using earbuds because I don’t have as much flexibility with sleeping position, but overall everything worked out okay. Hopefully I’ll have some more interesting things to say tomorrow- only 3 more days of actual practice in Level 1!!! Ah!! so exciting
Day 26- another sleep training session (and Day 27 probably will be too :P), but the difference last night was that I was much more awake than usual. I had taken a wakefulness pill that morning, and knew that although I would be able to sleep, I wouldn’t need to as badly as I usually do.
So my Brain Evolution System practice was interesting- I had a lot of strange visualizations and thoughts flying around for about the first half of my practice, and for the second half I was in a more deeply relaxed state. This breaks my usual pattern of 5-10 minutes to relax, 15-20 “under”, and 2-5 minutes coming out. Oh and also, when I unplugged my headphones, I dropped my phone out of the bed (I have a lofted bed) so I had to get out of bed to turn my alarm off this morning 😛
So anyways, it was an interesting practice session, but I can’t stop emphasizing how much I’m loving BrainEv right now- truly enjoyable, and well worth the almost one month it took to get to this point.
Just wanted to check in and say that I AM alive and yes I AM still moving forward with BrainEv (although I missed a few days).
There’s been once or twice that I’ve practiced early evening when I get home from work, but otherwise it’s been a lot of turning it on as I get in bed for the night. The same pattern always happens- takes me about 5 minutes or so to go “under”, I’m in a deep state of relaxation throughout, but not asleep, and then by the end of the audio I’m awake enough again to realize the audio has ended, take my headphones out, and head back to sleep easily.
That’s so awesome, considering that I used to always fall fully asleep during the audio and sleep past the ending as well. Now even if it’s actually bedtime, my brainwaves are entrained to the BrainEv Level 1 audio!
Anyways, I’ll make sure I’m doing daily blogs here as I approach the end of Level 1 and the start of new things! :O
Man! Life has gotten so busy since starting my full time job, and I almost missed BrainEv practice for like the 5th time today, so what did I do?
Following a suggestion I read on the BrainEv website, I just used the audio as I got in bed to fall asleep. Slightly different type of practice, but it’s still practice and I’m still progressing/benefiting.
What was interesting was that my level of consciousness followed the same pattern it usually does during Level I- I was awake for a few minutes at first, wasn’t consciously aware for the entire middle, and then came up again at the end. So I didn’t really fall asleep on the audio, as evidenced by my waking up, which was perfect for me to take my headphones out and fall right back asleep.
Otherwise nothing too interesting to report about this practice. I bet using BrainEv could be a great way to fall asleep for people who have trouble doing so- if that’s you, definitely download the free mp3 and try using that to fall asleep.
Today was a reflection day, which means that instead of using the brainwave audio (free download here), I sit in silent mindfulness meditation for around 10 minutes, and then spend some time reflecting on how BrainEv is working for me, my progress, my goals with the program, etc.
It was an incredibly busy day, so I did my mindfulness meditation while on the subway, which proved to have both good and bad aspects- the 10 minutes passed by very quickly, but once or twice I had to open my eyes because I was starting to feel disoriented. It was also a bit noisy for my taste, but not unmanageable.
Overall, I’m pretty happy with my progress in BrainEv so far- I have to keep in mind that it’s just Level 1, just halfway through, but things do feel good in the here and now. I’d say at least every other session has been really great, so that’s encouraging. Also, the goals that I set for myself during my first reflection are becoming more and more important to me as I’ve started my first full-time job in sales.
So far, so good! Let’s keep on progressing- I can’t wait for Level 2.
There was a loud thunderstorm outside while I practiced, which created a pretty cool environment to meditate in (and it probably also helped me stay awake). I stayed awake the entire time, which was an improvement over the past few days, and reach deep states of mind in the middle too.
Throughout most of the time where I was more conscious, I had “dreams” (even though this isn’t REM sleep)- i guess “visualizations” would be a better word. I had vivid dreams last night while I slept too, so maybe some of that was carrying over. I let these stay without trying to either engage in them or let go- so I count that as a major success following Lazy Yogi’s advice to “not have a goal”, just to meditate as is.
The one thing that made my practice less than perfect was that I got distracted by my phone 2 or 3 times at the beginning/end and opened my eyes to check out what was going on. Tomorrow I’ll be sure to turn on “Do Not Disturb” before my session.