Hey folks- sorry it’s been a few days since I’ve blogged! Days 12 and 13 were pretty standard sleep practice- it would take me a few minutes, but once I was under I drifted off to sleep pretty easily and never even woke up at the end of the session to get my headphones/phone out of bed.
Today was a really awesome practice- out of all my BrainEv practice sessions thus far I think it was the most interesting mental state I’ve attained yet.
I laid down for my practice feeling pretty tired, thinking that today’s session might just turn into a nap. I was using my nice big headphones (Sennheiser HD-205s), and had the volume on a little louder than usual. My mind started off a bit busy, and thoughts gradually shifted into those sorts of odd visualizations that I have before sleep- nonsensical, sometimes funny, and as one commenter here has pointed out, maybe a gateway into lucid dreaming. They weren’t particularly vivid or memorable today, but they were present and I was aware of them.
Something interesting happened though- midway through the session, I definitely wasn’t asleep, but I was still aware at some level. Usually when I reach the deepest parts of the session, I’m not even aware at that point, I’m pretty much unconscious. Today, I maintained some degree of consciousness, which was very interesting!
That effect, though, was in strongest force AFTER the session had ended- I decided that since I had been feeling tired and hadn’t fallen asleep during practice that I would just stay right where I was and nap for a bit. Except…I still didn’t fully fall asleep. My physical body was completely shut down, I felt like I couldn’t move (although I didn’t really try to/want to), but my mind was still somewhat conscious! Not fully, but I was definitely present. It was a strange sensation, I felt like my mind was separate/detached from my body, almost like a vague out of body experience. I stayed there just relaxing/vaguely thinking/napping for 15 minutes, although it felt like much longer.
At any rate, it was a fascinating sensation that made my practice all the more interesting today. I do feel like BrainEv is opening me up to those same levels of mind that are used in things like lucid dreaming or out of body experiences, so I’m even more excited now to continue progressing with it!