Level 2, Days 12-14: New Mental State Unlocked!

Hey folks- sorry it’s been a few days since I’ve blogged! Days 12 and 13 were pretty standard sleep practice- it would take me a few minutes, but once I was under I drifted off to sleep pretty easily and never even woke up at the end of the session to get my headphones/phone out of bed.

Today was a really awesome practice- out of all my BrainEv practice sessions thus far I think it was the most interesting mental state I’ve attained yet.

I laid down for my practice feeling pretty tired, thinking that today’s session might just turn into a nap. I was using my nice big headphones (Sennheiser HD-205s), and had the volume on a little louder than usual. My mind started off a bit busy, and thoughts gradually shifted into those sorts of odd visualizations that I have before sleep- nonsensical, sometimes funny, and as one commenter here has pointed out, maybe a gateway into lucid dreaming. They weren’t particularly vivid or memorable today, but they were present and I was aware of them.

Something interesting happened though- midway through the session, I definitely wasn’t asleep, but I was still aware at some level. Usually when I reach the deepest parts of the session, I’m not even aware at that point, I’m pretty much unconscious. Today, I maintained some degree of consciousness, which was very interesting!

That effect, though, was in strongest force AFTER the session had ended- I decided that since I had been feeling tired and hadn’t fallen asleep during practice that I would just stay right where I was and nap for a bit. Except…I still didn’t fully fall asleep. My physical body was completely shut down, I felt like I couldn’t move (although I didn’t really try to/want to), but my mind was still somewhat conscious! Not fully, but I was definitely present. It was a strange sensation, I felt like my mind was separate/detached from my body, almost like a vague out of body experience. I stayed there just relaxing/vaguely thinking/napping for 15 minutes, although it felt like much longer.

At any rate, it was a fascinating sensation that made my practice all the more interesting today. I do feel like BrainEv is opening me up to those same levels of mind that are used in things like lucid dreaming or out of body experiences, so I’m even more excited now to continue progressing with it!

Level 2, Day 11: Best Level 2 Practice thus far!

Today I had definitely the best Level 2 practice that I’ve had so far. One potential reason that it went so well and I didn’t fall asleep: I drank a soda ~20 minutes before my practice. I think having some caffeine in my system kept me from falling asleep, without having so much caffeine in me that it negatively impacted my practice.

Interestingly enough, I saw a return to the form of my good Level 1 practice sessions: My mind was decently active for about the first 10 minutes of practice, then I went into a deep state of relaxation and quiet mind for 15 minutes, and then the brainwaves accurately started to bring me out and into a more conscious level of awareness for the last 5 minutes.

I felt so refreshed and was in such a deep state of mind that I had to open my eyes as I was coming out, because I wasn’t sure if I had accidentally let the track repeat! Sure enough, there were only 3 minutes left in the program, and it was right about time that the brainwaves should be pulling me out.

I count today as a major success, and by far the best I’ve felt using Level 2. This is pretty encouraging to me, and I look forward to watching my progress as the level progresses!

Level 2, Day 10: Afternoon Nap

I didn’t sleep very well last night- my dreams were bothering me to the point where I decided to just wake up early, even though it was the weekend and I was looking forward to sleeping. So, when it came time after lunch to lay down and do my BrainEv practice, I knew there was a pretty good chance that I’d end up falling asleep.

Sure enough, I did! hahaha

At this point, I’m not too upset about falling asleep, because it’s been hard enough to do during Level 2. Obviously, after this week I’m hoping to adjust to the brainwaves and schedule my practice sessions better so that I don’t fall asleep so much, but for now I’m okay with it.

I was awake for probably the first 5 minutes of the session, and then I stayed asleep for a good 10-20min after the audio ended. I didn’t wake up feeling super refreshed, I was still a bit groggy, but now I’m back on my feet and going again.

Hopefully tomorrow’s practice will be more conscious and deliberate and I’ll have more exciting news to share!

Level 2, Day 9: Imagery before Sleep

Yesterday night I had to do a sleep practice, as it was unavoidable, but as it turns out my initial fear of doing sleep practice for Level 2 were completely unfounded- it’s actually suggested in the Level 2 explanation video, as I found out two days ago!

Of course, it did take me a good couple of minutes to get relaxed and start to fall asleep, but as I was doing so, I had increasingly vivid/interesting visualizations as the brainwaves took me deeper, something I knew was a possibility thanks to the explanation video. In fact, I’ve noticed that in general I always tend to have nonsensical visualizations JUST before falling asleep, and I can use them as a reliable sign that I’m about to fall asleep, but these were just a little more vivid/I was more consciously aware of them.

After that, I have no idea how the rest of the session went- I fell asleep and never woke up again as I would during Level 1 sleep training. I woke up (get this) exactly a minute before my alarm was to go off, realizing that my headphones were still plugged into my phone and I was initially worried that I hadn’t heard my alarm and had overslept by an hour or something. Nope- I woke myself up literally 60 seconds before it went off. Good morning!

Level 2, Day 8: Easy Going

I honestly don’t have too much to report about this session- it was great. I put my headphones on, laid down, and was out a few minutes later.

If I fell asleep, then the brainwaves worked perfectly and I came out of my trance with exactly a minute left in the audio. However, I think I was actually just in a deep state of mind, because I do remember being aware that my roommate had come home somewhere in the middle of my practice.

This is awesome! I think I just had my first really successful session with Level 2, and it did indeed feel like an even deeper state of mind than Level 1. Like I said though, maybe I just fell asleep and I’m crazy hahaha. Tomorrow will tell!

 

Level 2, Day 7: Reflection 2.1

So when I initially looked back on my first 6 days of Level 2, I feel like I over-dramatized the challenge that Level 2 presents in adding extra background sounds to try and distract you. Literally, it’s just background sounds, and the brainwaves actually go much deeper than Level 1.

So for my reflection today, I went back and re-watched the Level 2 explanation/background video. I think it was a good reminder to just give things more time, and soon enough I’ll be relaxing at deep levels.

There were also some pieces of info that I had totally forgotten about, like the fact that Level 2 often induces vivid imagery/thoughts as the subconscious and conscious minds make contact and transfer information (caused by the deep levels of brainwaves in Level 2). I’m going to keep an eye out for that- the advice was to not try to direct this, but just to observe it and watch it dissipate.

Overall, I’m walking into week 2 of this level with newfound encouragement, and a good curiosity about what I’ll experience when it comes to imagery, more vivid dreams, etc. See you tomorrow for another brainwave session!

Level 2, Day 6: From Stressed to Sleep

Today’s practice was kind of interesting, seeing as Level 2 has been posing problems for me in terms of being able to get mentally relaxed.

Shortly (~15 minutes) before I did my BrainEv practice, a situation popped up that made me very stressed- totally activated my “flight or fight” response and sent a surge of adrenaline pumping through me. So when I started the practice, my first priority was slowing down my breathing and getting physically relaxed.

And I got that under control within a few minutes, and mental relaxation came by the time I was about 10 minutes in. Then before I knew it, I was halfway through the audio and falling asleep! Guess I got a little too relaxed 😛

I did wake up a minute or two after the end of the audio, and then decided I’d stay and rest for another 10 minutes. Interesting practice 😛

Level 2, Day 5: My First AM Practice

For the first time ever, I did an AM practice session soon after I had woken up and showered. Since I was experiencing some trouble with intrusive thinking yesterday, I thought that maybe practicing before my brain had really kicked into high gear with the stress/challenges of the day would help me quiet down.

As I found last night, it was pretty easy to relax physically, but my mind did indeed present a pretty constant stream of thoughts again. There may have been a few lapses of mental quietude near the end, but for the most part it was hard to quiet my mind.

We’ll see if this just takes a few more days to overcome, but so far Level 2 is indeed challenging! It probably also has a lot to do with my current life situation, but this means that the level will be all the more beneficial for me, and I’m excited to see my progress at the end of a week.

Level 2, Day 4: Intrusive Thoughts

So I missed a few days of BrainEv as I just went through a pretty tough time in my life- a breakup 🙁

Although I’m feeling better and back on my feet again, that doesn’t mean that I don’t still think about it plenty every day, and I found that those intrusive thoughts + the increased difficulty of mental relaxation in Level 2 made today’s practice a challenge.

Although I think there may have been brief moments where I was mentally relaxed during the last 10 minutes of the practice, my mind was switched “on” and thoughts were flowing for almost the entire duration.

I’m glad that I didn’t fall into the trap of “efforting” my mind to remain quiet- I did stay as relaxed as possible, and was physically relaxed as well. But between the audio making it more challenging to mentally “go under” (as is the purpose of Level 2), and my thoughts proving more of a roadblock than usual, today’s practice was iffy and tough.

I’m interested to see how long this continues on for, if at all, hopefully not too long! If nothing else, I’m getting a lot out of Level 2’s challenges!

Level 2, Day 2: Sleep practice a bad idea?

I think I’m going to try and avoid sleeptime practice for as much of Level 2 as possible. Of course, sometimes it’ll be impossible to avoid (as it was yesterday). In those cases, it’s better to get my practice in than to not, but because of the unique goals of Level 2 that I wrote about in my last post, sleep practice won’t be nearly as beneficial (unlike Level 1).

That being said, last night I did do sleeptime practice, and it went just fine. I put on the audio and fell asleep after about 5 minutes. I must not have come out of it, because I never remember taking out my headphones before just straight up falling asleep. I also woke up VERY tired this morning, so maybe that’s connected somehow- either I was super tired going into it, or the brainwaves somehow messed up my sleep, who knows.

At any rate, I’ll be sure to do a regular practice for Day 3 and keep it that way moving forward. Onwards with Level 2!