For the first time ever, I did an AM practice session soon after I had woken up and showered. Since I was experiencing some trouble with intrusive thinking yesterday, I thought that maybe practicing before my brain had really kicked into high gear with the stress/challenges of the day would help me quiet down.
As I found last night, it was pretty easy to relax physically, but my mind did indeed present a pretty constant stream of thoughts again. There may have been a few lapses of mental quietude near the end, but for the most part it was hard to quiet my mind.
We’ll see if this just takes a few more days to overcome, but so far Level 2 is indeed challenging! It probably also has a lot to do with my current life situation, but this means that the level will be all the more beneficial for me, and I’m excited to see my progress at the end of a week.
So I missed a few days of BrainEv as I just went through a pretty tough time in my life- a breakup 🙁
Although I’m feeling better and back on my feet again, that doesn’t mean that I don’t still think about it plenty every day, and I found that those intrusive thoughts + the increased difficulty of mental relaxation in Level 2 made today’s practice a challenge.
Although I think there may have been brief moments where I was mentally relaxed during the last 10 minutes of the practice, my mind was switched “on” and thoughts were flowing for almost the entire duration.
I’m glad that I didn’t fall into the trap of “efforting” my mind to remain quiet- I did stay as relaxed as possible, and was physically relaxed as well. But between the audio making it more challenging to mentally “go under” (as is the purpose of Level 2), and my thoughts proving more of a roadblock than usual, today’s practice was iffy and tough.
I’m interested to see how long this continues on for, if at all, hopefully not too long! If nothing else, I’m getting a lot out of Level 2’s challenges!