Level 2, Day 31: 2/7 DONE!!! :) (Reflection 2.4)

As BrainEv’s brainwave developer Michael Kelley says in the Level 2 video, “Level 2 is designed to increase your ability to deal with situations that interfere with your calm and focus”, and boy was that true for my last Level 2 practice last night- I practiced with my roommate and his friend watching TV semi-loudly in the same room! Obviously not ideal, but it was the only time I could get my practice in, and sure enough, after some initial struggling, I did reach a deep state of relaxation and didn’t notice the TV after the first 10 minutes or so.

My dreams have continued to be very vivid as I’ve been more consistent with my practice, which I find to be an enjoyable and interesting side effect.

As I reviewed my Level 2 posts, I can see the progress that I’m making over time. It’s remarkable to me how easy it is to use Level 2 now compared to the first week of using it. I’m also noticing a lot more coming out of my BrainEv sessions, like the visualizations and vivid dreams. I revisited my goals list from the end of Level 1, and wanted to reword/re-prioritize them a bit, as well as write how I think things are going with each:

  • Decrease stress levels and increase “being in a ‘flow state’” in my everyday life – I definitely feel a decrease in stress levels when using BrainEv, so progress is being made here!
  • Enable and support positive rewiring and reprogramming of my brain – I also feel like BrainEv is helping me make major strides on this goal as well
  • Reach and explore new, deeper states of relaxation and mind – Starting to get into this with the visualization/vivid dreams, and the sleep paralysis I experienced that one day. Hopefully Level 3 will bring more of this!
  • Open a new channel of awareness and free myself from my mind by “watching the thinker” (see Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now”) – Can’t say I’ve focused much on this at all. Should do so moving forward.
  • Begin and boost a lifelong love and daily practice of meditation – This is starting to take shape!

Overall, Level 2 was an encouraging and fun experience, even though it took me WAYYYY too long to complete. Tomorrow I’m starting Level 3- can’t wait!!!

 

Level 2, Day 14: Reflection 2.2

Wow! Been almost two weeks since I’ve blogged- sorry for the hiatus! I really need to get back on track with my BrainEv practice, and although I’ve done two sessions past when I should have paused for reflection, I figured I’d write my “weekly” reflection up here first, and then my blog posts will just jump forward to Day 17. 

As I look back over all of my Level 2 posts thus far, I’m noticing a couple different things:

  • There was a major improvement in the effects I experienced from Week 1 to Week 2
  • My best sessions come when I’ve been using BrainEv consistently and as close to daily as possible
  • When I’m having good BrainEv sessions, it greatly helps my emotional/mental states throughout the day

For the last week or two, I got super busy and stopped doing a lot of the daily habits that have helped me be successful, like my BrainEv practice. I’ve run into some challenging moments and less-than-ideal days lately, so I know that I need to make a renewed effort to practice BrainEv as close to daily as possible.

So, I’ll be moving forward keeping in mind that need for a renewed effort, and I’m also just excited to see what else Level 2 brings me. The last blog post I made had me unlocking new states of mind, which was very exciting, and seeing as Level 2 is still just “skill building” and “introductory”, I can’t imagine what Levels 3-7 can bring me!

Level 2, Day 6: From Stressed to Sleep

Today’s practice was kind of interesting, seeing as Level 2 has been posing problems for me in terms of being able to get mentally relaxed.

Shortly (~15 minutes) before I did my BrainEv practice, a situation popped up that made me very stressed- totally activated my “flight or fight” response and sent a surge of adrenaline pumping through me. So when I started the practice, my first priority was slowing down my breathing and getting physically relaxed.

And I got that under control within a few minutes, and mental relaxation came by the time I was about 10 minutes in. Then before I knew it, I was halfway through the audio and falling asleep! Guess I got a little too relaxed 😛

I did wake up a minute or two after the end of the audio, and then decided I’d stay and rest for another 10 minutes. Interesting practice 😛

Level 2, Day 4: Intrusive Thoughts

So I missed a few days of BrainEv as I just went through a pretty tough time in my life- a breakup 🙁

Although I’m feeling better and back on my feet again, that doesn’t mean that I don’t still think about it plenty every day, and I found that those intrusive thoughts + the increased difficulty of mental relaxation in Level 2 made today’s practice a challenge.

Although I think there may have been brief moments where I was mentally relaxed during the last 10 minutes of the practice, my mind was switched “on” and thoughts were flowing for almost the entire duration.

I’m glad that I didn’t fall into the trap of “efforting” my mind to remain quiet- I did stay as relaxed as possible, and was physically relaxed as well. But between the audio making it more challenging to mentally “go under” (as is the purpose of Level 2), and my thoughts proving more of a roadblock than usual, today’s practice was iffy and tough.

I’m interested to see how long this continues on for, if at all, hopefully not too long! If nothing else, I’m getting a lot out of Level 2’s challenges!

Level 1, Day 31: Level 1 Graduation

Today I “graduate” from Level 1. I feel pretty accomplished- it took way longer than a month, and I’m only seeing a sliver of progress on my goals, but I know that things are working for me and I can’t wait to see what Level 2 holds.

I spent my final reflection day to just read every blog post I’ve written during Level 1. I know I didn’t write a post every day, but I want to get better with maintaining this blog during Level 2 and also make some improvements to the design/layout/etc.

I also revisited my listing of goals, and based on some of my other practices/readings right now, as well as my life circumstances (I’ve been struggling with anxiety at my sales job), I’ve made a few changes. I deleted the goal to improve cognitive functioning (just not as important right now), added a new one about unlocking new dimensions of awareness, and otherwise tweaked/reworked the existing ones.

So now, my (semi-prioritized) list of goals is as follows:

  • Open a new channel of awareness and free myself from my mind by “watching the thinker” (see Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now”)
  • Decrease stress levels and increase “being in a ‘flow state’” in my everyday life
  • Enable and support positive rewiring and reprogramming of my brain
  • Reach and explore new, deeper states of relaxation and mind
  • Begin and boost a lifelong love and daily practice of meditation

Can’t wait to see what Level 2 will hold for me. I’ll check in tomorrow after my first brainwave practice!

Level 1, Day 30: Last Level I Practice!

I have to say, I’m actually kind of surprised that I made it this far. When I started using BrainEv, I almost persuaded myself AGAINST making this blog, thinking to myself “Ugh, I never finish these things- I’ll just give up after a week or two.” So I’m feeling pretty accomplished right now.

I’ll use my time tomorrow for the final Level I reflection (and then I’m on to Level II holy crap!), so in this post I’m just going to talk about how my final practice went.

I did a late afternoon practice as I usually do (when I’m not doing pre-sleep practice), and it went very well. I went into it feeling a little bit of dread and anxiety about my work life (things are kind of tough right now, but it makes using BrainEv all the more worthwhile), and doing the practice definitely helped erase/alleviate those feelings. Within 5 minutes I was fully relaxed and in a deep state of meditation.

I stayed consistently down, except for a brief moment of consciousness maybe 15-20 minutes in where I just felt gratitude and said “wow, this feels great” and continued along. It took me a few extra minutes to fully “wake up” after the audio ended, maybe 2-3 minutes, but I know I didn’t fall asleep and I woke up feeling nice and refreshed.

Overall, a great note to end Level I on!

Level 1, Day 28: Brain Evolution System De-Stress

After a really rough and depressing day at work, I spent my evening relaxing until about 9:30 when I went ahead and did my BrainEv practice.

At first, I had a lot of thoughts rushing around my mind- no surprise, especially given how my day went. As I started to gain control of my mind and slow down, I actually opened my eyes and checked how far into the practice I was- almost 5 minutes, meaning my “5 minutes to go ‘down'” theory is spot on. I began relaxing quickly after that.

I actually ended up falling asleep in the middle of the practice, which is something I haven’t done in a while, but I guess it’s exactly what my body/mind needed. I only slept for about 2 minutes after the audio ended, so I’m sure that the brainwaves coming back up to an alert state did indeed help draw me out of sleep.

An okay practice, but exactly what I needed after a sucky day. Looking forward to my last two days of Level 1 actual practice!

Level 1, Day 12: EXHAUSTION

Okay, maybe I shouldn’t have put that title up in all caps. I wasn’t THAT exhausted.

Today was my first day at my new job- I’m doing sales at a big startup in Boston- and when I got home, I was wiped. Not only was I tired, but I also had a pretty bad headache.

Perfect time to unwind and relax with BrainEv!

So I settled down, put on my headphones, and after spending a few minutes awake and relaxing, fell asleep for the duration of my practice and a bit afterwards as well (like 5-10min past the end of the audio). It may not have been an amazing practice in terms of Brain Evolution System (although remember, falling asleep doesn’t mean I’m getting nothing out of it!), but it was exactly what my body/mind needed today.

I think as I adjust to my new job and work schedule, and learn how to better maximize my energy throughout the day, I’ll continue to improve with BrainEv. So far, so good- really enjoying the program.